I’m a little disoriented with all that is happening around me. It’s only been a week since I got back from our [UPMC] tour from Europe, and only been a week since I stepped out of our home because of the 7-10-day voluntary self-quarantine. Moreover, because of the events mentioned, I missed the first two weeks of classes. I’ve been away from the Philippines–specifically Manila, for almost a month, and out of school–especially during the first few days of classes, for more than two months. Thus making me slightly unknowing of the things happening in, and feel detached from, the world. Well, Manila–UP Manila is “the” world for me at this time.
Disorientation, and perhaps insecurities, really had me contemplating about my first attempt to attend one of my classes–OC152. “Is it okay?” “Will it be safe?” “WIll they force me to go back home?” “Are they expecting to see me?” “Am I ready to see them?” “Am I TOO late?” “Am I out of place?” Am I serious about this??” Am I REALLY ready?”
Thinking too much almost stopped me from entering the gates of CAS that Saturday afternoon. But [tentenententen] of course, I eventually went in and found my way to our classroom. It seemed more or less the same and more or less different. Same people I know, but different experiences offered I guess.
Doubt and insecurities are still with me. If I regained my “lost” connection to this world? It’s a bit early to say. Starting this blog does not prove much either. Yet I knew I would have to face it no matter what, where, how, or when. So now, I just dare face it once again. And hopefully, be able to do things right.
SO help me GOd. 😉